LEA

God really loves me that much that He made me closer to you. I found a family in you and you’re one of the reasons why I am enjoying my stay in Manila. He chose you above all people. We both should be grateful for that.

I’ll miss every single moment we finish each other’s sentences with lyrics. Those times when we rack our brains if we forget the title of the song and all that we can think of are the lyrics. I’m so thankful that music’s part of this world. It’s one thing that made our bond strong. Although we share some good deal of choices, it’s one thing that made us enjoy our company. Forever will I not forget the song “Irreplaceable” because that’s the time when we’re starting to like each other. Can I not finish this? I can’t breathe anymore.

Do you still remember how many times we giggled whenever we think of the same thing at the same time or type the same thing at the same time? We have a lot of those and I’ve never experienced that with anyone yet. I guess we’re both of the same level but of course you would want to be the first so go ahead and take the top spot and I’ll be the second.

No one understands me better than you do. No one takes me as I am like you do. I can’t pretend anymore when I’m in front of you because you can see right through me. I don’t want to start looking for someone who’ll do that for me. The real me is when I’m with you. I’ve never opened up to anyone like I always do to you-trash talks, dirty talks, serious talks, whatever talk there is. All the happy moments happened when I was with you and I hope they don’t stop just there. I can’t thank you enough for helping me find me. 

Thanks for everything. Please never let go of me ‘cause I’m not letting go until the last man on earth dies.

Signed, sealed, delivered, I’m yours,
Pepe, Pepito, Philipos, Phelps

The P.A.I.N.

It might be far too long but as days and hours move so quickly, I might suddently find myself facing the end of everything. It's difficult to keep something especially if doesn't bear anything good at all. It's painful and unbearable. The pang of every undesirable emotion crushes every flesh and bones I have. My mind's battling with perfectly arranged indestructible notion.


P.S.
To borrow a line from Pink's Family Portrait, "...pain is painful and it's tearing me down".

El Cambio

There are times that we resist change because we're afraid of what might happen when it arrives. Change is something that I fear but can't avoid. It makes me nervous. It gives me enough reasons to be nervous.

I don't know if I should be excited with the changes that will soon take place - professionally and emotionally. I am not prepared honestly but there's nothing I can do but to just embrace it as it comes. I just wish it's for the better.


P.S. More to come.