Resistant

Here comes another cyclone that will soon ruin my peaceful life. I believe we all go through a phase of rapid changes everyday. I am not one of those who can cope easily. As a matter of fact, I hate it.

Right now, I am quite contented with how my life goes. I can say that I have already established a good relationship with all the variables surrounding me. I am starting to enjoy the so-called normal life! Everything is lovely!

                                                                   

Can we just let it be? Can we please leave it there so I can be happy? I can’t take another moment to force myself that what’s going to happen is for my own good because I believe where I am right now is what’s perfect. I don’t want another rain to pour on me for what I want is sunlight.

Changes are inevitable but can we slow down for even just a minute? We get tired. I get tired too.

I have no control of what will happen soon. I am bracing myself. I am scared. I am worried and I hate it. If it’s not good for me then it’s not for me.

Go On

I say goodbye dear old friend.
We may have shared funny talks,
But everything has come to an end.
I can't follow while you walk.


This isn't what I have hoped for.
All of a sudden you don't know me;
Like you purposely shut the door,
Ignoring my cry and plea.


I say go on and leave me.
I know how to walk away too.
If that's how things should be,
Then that's what I'll do.

No Words To Say

Even without any assurance that somebody reads this blog, I would still want to apologize for not being able to update this the way that I should.


This has been my home whenever I am emotional. This is where I would always rant and pour out my depression. I guess I am not like that these past few days or months. Rarely I feel lonely or down. There are times when I would get sad out of boredom and not because I'm in a battle with my temperamental self. Problems do arise from time to time. They worry me occasionally; however, I am getting good at ignoring them.


Work sucks, but it is more of a personal reason why I am not that in love with what I do. There are so many things I want to be and I don't know what to choose, how and where to start which is not really new in my world. Most of the time, I confuse other people as much as I confuse myself.


There are so many ideas in my head that I want to put into writing but most of the time, I just let them get out of my brain. I am too lazy to think nowadays that I often do things without thinking. I am stuck in a routine and I am finding it hard to get out of it.


Though I don't post much in here, it doesn't mean that I have been too quiet. This place is where I hide my gloomy side yet I am thinking of rebuilding this by letting the sun not just the rain.


If you are interested in knowing what I have been up to, you can check my tumblr page which is updated almost everyday. I am no longer a twitter addict but you can still check my daily feeds. I have also joined lookbook couple of days ago. It is becoming my latest addiction. You can check my style at lookboook.nu/pipou.

I spent my life lately not with words but with the songs I listen to and the clothes that I wear. Not in writing but in the melodies of music and the colorful fabrics of fashion.


These are the reasons why I have been M.I.A. here. I miss this place but I better think of clever words to type the next time I come over.


xoxo