There are feelings that can't be defined using words. That no matter how hard you try to find its meaning, you'll end up not finding anything. The heart does feel something. The mind knows, yet it chooses to keep quiet for when it starts thinking, it will overshadow everything.
It is not clear if it is the heart or the mind that brought us here. By the looks of it, I guess it is the former. There is uncertainty, hence the term guess. And I can't presume, so I will let things happen without controlling them. There are no rules; however, expectations were laid out. Words were used, but our actions do not seem to understand these. We remind ourselves not to cross the line, but going beyond is our sweetest misdemeanor. Behaviors are open to misinterpretation and one wrong move may lead us to an awkward situation.
I know where to stand. It's a cold, dark place I'm familiar with. The only difference is that you visit me every now and then. You bring me life, but I still don't get to live. I should have not chosen this battle for whatever happens, in the end, I will be alone waving a white flag; and you will move on winning and smiling.
You can't blame me and I can't blame you too. I have wished for a life other than this, but this is what I got. You could have been that someone I have prayed for, but I do not own you.
Everything is wrong and I don't want to be right anymore. If being right means I have to go back to where I was before, then I'd rather be happy and wrong.
