Drunken Day After Twilight & That Inspiring Homily To Get Through Another Monday

It’s Monday again and most of us are gonna be having this so-called Monday sickness. I don’t really want to hate Monday. It’s the start of the working week and I have to start it right. I think it’s laziness that should be blamed, not the day.

To motivate me, I’m going to start thinking of how I’ll be spending my weekend again.

Don’t get me started on how crazy this weekend was! It’s the craziest I guess. Four hours of sleep did not drain my energy, not until some important Twilightcharacters started dying. Whew! That was something I was expecting because I’ve read that they added a twist to the ending. I didn’t know that there was more to it than that. I don’t need to hear any anti-Twilight comments because obviously, they have nothing but hate. I just want to say from one of the greatest fans’ point of view that the saga gave us a jaw-dropping ending. I must admit I cried on the latter part of the film. My friend and I had so much memories together because of these books - from re-enacting the lines, haunting the bookstore that sells the newly released book and making our way through the long line of Twihards in every movie adaptation. Now, what is there to look forward to?

Well that ending called for a celebration. Me and my good friend who wants to drink when she’s not drinking went to this bar. Both of us were hesitant because it’s our first time there. It went pretty well though. I drank too much. I almost ordered everything on the menu (Jägermeister, Margarita, Screw Driver, Tequila Sunset, Paradise, Draft Beer and Flat Line) and I was still able to go home. The place is nice and they have awesome performers. I promise to go back and earlier today, I was about to. I went to church instead. This might be my place to hang out during Saturdays! We’ll see!

I’m getting good at spending my time attending mass during Sundays. I normally would want to hear mass in the morning because it maximizes my time but if it’s not possible, I do it in the afternoon. Earlier I guess was the latest I have attended and God’s Words hit me again as the priest said. “Give your best to life”. I’ve been too concerned with fear that I often end up second-guessing myself. That sucks because that hinders me from giving my very best.

You do good, people will talk about you. You do bad, they’ll do the same. Better do whatever you got to do and give your best. And you won’t regret a single thing.

I celebrated life this weekend. I want to do the same for the coming weekends or do it on a daily basis.

So how am I gonna be spending my November 24 ad 25? Aahh I want a massage. That’s all I can think of right now. I’m gonna make this week pass by like a gust of wind and get the massage I need.

Love Life

This very moment is my favorite time of the day where my mind is at peace and my thoughts can skip, flow and run continuously without any interruption.

Few things I found out lately; although this might've been known before but I guess it's worth telling again is that you'll always get by with a little help from a friend. Life's ain't that difficult at all when you have friends who would jump into your crazy idea of singing out loud One Direction's song inside the office every single day, adjust their schedule just so you could eat with them, discuss work related issue like it's the only problem in the world that matters or laugh about just anything or anyone. It is indeed fun and it makes life worth living.

I was riding the jeepney earlier when I looked at the faces of the passengers. Some looked tired, others were sleepy while the rest are still awake with smiles on their faces. I belong to the last one I've mentioned. Then I asked myself how many times I've gone home stressed and grumpy just because of work.

We all go through the same routine everyday. We may have the same mood and same struggles but at the end of the day, we will always decide if we will let our emotions consume us or not. Today, I didn't. Today I fought the urge to give in. I turned around and owned my day.

I guess that's one way of loving life - letting the bad ones go and welcoming the good ones in!

A Few Realizations

No matter what your job is, whether you like it or not, you will definitely get tired. The only difference is that if you love your job, even if you're tired, at the end of the day, you will still have that smile on your face. There's still fulfillment, joy and motivation.

Wherever you go, there will always be those who will try to bring you down, tear you up and break you into pieces. You just need to go along and pretend that they don't exist. People's insecurity is something that can't be cured easily. Sometimes it goes away and most of the time it joins its master to his grave.

To grow maturely, you need to be with the right kind of people, in the right place and at the right time. This does not happen most of the time. If in any case you're with the wrong ones, try to change them. If not, then leave them behind.

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I am just sooo exhausted right now but I have to carry on. I don't want to be a loser. I can't give up. Not now, not ever.

Capital H.I.M.

Sometimes we have to go through a lot of sufferings and struggles just so we could taste the happiness and fulfillment we deserve. We sometimes need to let our troubles consume us, think of giving up and allow hatred to rule our lives because that's part of being who we are. We get tired. We feel hopeless, yet we still need to go on.

There has been a lot of trials lately that almost knocked me off dead. I must say that I wouldn't want to go back to that state no matter what the prize is. It was the most painful stage I've ever gone through and that waking up every single morning is a curse that I would want to be saved from. I have tried escaping, quitting and even ignoring the lowest point of my existince. I searched for all the possible solutions to save me from the mess I was in when I found out that there's one thing I haven't tried doing yet - praying!

It helps a lot when you have greater connection with HIM. I have been ruling my own world when I shouldn't be the king. I have been complaining when I haven't tried reaching out to HIM. I turned a deaf ear when He told me to be patient. I was running when He asked me to stay. I kept on carrying the load when He was ready to carry it for me.

Through it all, I have already forgiven myself and I have learned to appreciate life's challenges more. For as long as I have the Big Boss' guidance, I am going to be fine. I may lose my calmness and perseverance to move on with the journey He has bestowed upon me but He will surely take me there.

I almost lost my mind and the smallest courage I have been keeping to survive, but the Lord has opened another chapter for me to enjoy. I know that there will still be problems ahead of me. I am willing to endure all the pain through God's guidance. I am now ready to redeem myself and live again.

Still Blessed

Everyday I complain about how exhausting it is to work in my current job. Everyday I drag myself to work because even if I loathe it, I was not born to skip obligations. This has been going on for months now and it's kind of funny that I'm still surviving.

Yes, I am tired. I hate what I do and I am so demotivated. Yet, I thank God for even though I am undergoing such tumultuous condition, I still survive the everyday pressure, I receive payment every 15th day of the month for what I do and I am not the only one who's having a hard time coping with the present situation.

After all, I'm still blessed.

I might be going through this whole shit mess right now but I know that the Big Man up there has big plans for me. In fact, He has already cooked one.

I love you Lord. I hate my job.

02:00

Been holding on for too long.
Maybe it's time I let go.
The wheels are in motion,
And I choose to run slow.

I'm on the brink of quitting.
I gasp for air to survive.
No one can can change this feeling.
Like I'm no longer alive.

Goodbye smiles around the corner.
I seldom wave and say 'Hi!'.
Everyday it teases me,
Giving me reasons to go away.