catch me

not a love hater anymore

gone are the days when i used to hate love. i've always been a believer that it's something that wouldn't give me any good. i am resistant and hesitant. i oftentimes believe that it's just a superficial feeling.

maybe i've loved. perhaps i loved myself more than anybody else. maybe i was there but i chose not to consider it. Or I guess, i was too immature before. i think i was jealous that there are people out there who are somebody's somebody.

i got tired of hating love. it's just now that i realized how gloomy and heavy it is to carry. love can't be negative. love is real and it is everywhere. it's in my housemate and her fiance, my friend and her boyfriend, with my parents who made me out of love. It is a lovely feeling when felt purely and given wholly.

the path to loving someone is just a step away. i may not be prepared of what might happen but i'll be fine. i'm willing to take the risk. i bet it's now time that i smile, laugh or cry because of love. i have long been caged into loving nobody but me. I'm glad that i've broken down the walls surrounding my little world of hatred towards love.

and now, i got to find somebody to love.

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you're out there

Boys Like Girls: LOVE DRUNK

When I heard that they will be releasing a new album, I was totally stoked! I made a lot of search online: the tracks that'll be included, the album cover and the people they've worked with for this second phase of their musical career.

At last, Love Drunk was released September 7, 2009 and I was lucky enough that the website I usually download songs from had a complete copy of the tracks. Yeah, call me a thief i don't mind. Martin Johnson doesn't mind either. According to him, "if you downloaded it illegally or burnt it from a friend, that’s ok too. i would much rather you have this record for free than not at all, and i’ve learned to accept the way most modern music is acquired." and I so admire him for his better understanding about this. I do check on his blog everyday. The album is one track shorter than their first album but 1 min and 22 secs longer in duration. the album cover is quite glossy though.

The songs that caught my attention are: go, someone like you and two is better than one (a duet with Taylor Swift). These songs did not actually justify their punk-rock style but these sure are nice ballads. Johnson really knows how to throw his voice. He sounds great when he sings ballad specially the way he shifts his tenor to falsetto.

The rest of the tracks are made up of danceable beats, hummable melodies and chorus chants. They're more like Bon Jovi-ish this time. The thing that makes this album better than the first one is that the lyrics are more mature and that they have moved on from their teenage-related experiences. For this one, most of the listeners can relate to the songs no matter how old or young you are. But what the heck? Why should I compare the two when both came from the same boys I admire and look up to.

i don't give an F!

my feelings...

my confusion...



your glance...

your carresses...



you left...

you're gone..

LET IT RAIN

Every little tear I was scared to cry

Everything I feared but I kept inside

I don't wanna hold it back one more day

Oh wash it away

Every tiny thought clouding up my head

Every single word that I never said

I refuse to feel ashamed
LET IT RAIN

sunrise

i've already waken up from a very deep sleep... the sun is almost up and my feeling's getting better.

SUNSET

i was so down these past few days..been keeping a lot of pain inside..got no one to talk to...i can't even explain why i'm feeling that way..

it was one of those days that somebody came like a sunrise..i was blinded by the light...thought he was beautiful..i was blinded by everything hat he has done to me...i should've never thought that way..i should've learned from my past...but i was..i guess dumb that i did not figure out that i'm on the same place i' ve been before.

like the sunrise i thought something different will happen..well as what i expected...not everything that started beautiful lasts..

i can't stare at the rising sun..i'll be blinded by it's light....

it's better to watch the sunset...it makes me see that another page of my life is ending..just like the sunset..everything's fading away..the hurt..misconception and all the pain that brought all this loneliness..

and by night time..my soul will be at rest...

when the sun rises...i'll be whole again..