Dans le Milieu d'une Crise

You woke up one morning and then you realized that where you are isn't where you ever wanted to be. You're stuck and you don't know where else to go. This totally sucks. Life's a matter of choosing what's best for us. We might end up being on the wrong course but it'll always take us to a place we would call home. Sometimes, we lose patience. We ask why it's taking that long. We might want to look inside and examine if we're doing something about the failure that we are.

So today I woke up finding out that my goals are gone. I wake up everyday without having something to look forward to. I live just for the sake of living. But why am I living? What do I want in life? What are my priorities and what do I want to become in the next coming years?

Almost everyday I spend my time staring at my computer's monitor doing stuff that do not benefit me. Seriously, my day's always about escaping from reality. My time gets eaten by activities that are not healthy. At present, I live a passive life and I have no idea where I'm driving at.

It's difficult having a lot of blurred images in my mind. Circling clouds of uncertainty appear everywhere. Living a life in limbo isn't fun at all. I need to fake my emotion sometimes just to not let you see through me.

Where I am right now is not where I thought of years ago. I was a strong-willed individual until I was tied down to something that has limited all my capacities.

If you think that I am fulfilled, think again. Don't overanalyze and think that my life's a piece of heaven for the truth is I am struggling. I am lost.

A wrecking ball hit me today. I am capable. I can be the best in everything I want. Nobody has to tell me where I'm good at because I can only tell myself that. Nobody can fix this mess I unintentionally made but me.

Today’s the start. It is today!

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I need to consider Bruno Mars' take on this: "I will break these chains that bind me. Happiness will find me, leave the past behind me. Today my life begins. A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking. I know i can make it. Today my life begins."

Le Plus Grand Désir

There are moments that I would want to have you close beside me. Endless nights of loneliness would often lead me to thoughts of you. I would wish that I have you here so that I could tell you all my worries and have you fix everything with just one big hug.

In the middle of the night we would hold hands and runaway from life’s troubles. We’ll escape, get lost and live.

Yes, that’s my greatest desire.

I Saw Her BURLESQUE!

Get your ass up! Show me how you burlesque!

After two months of waiting, I finally watched the movie yesterday with two of my housemates. I’ve been a fan of Christina Aguilera since day one and my housemates really know how to tick me off that’s why I was a bit hesitant of letting them join me. I was afraid they’ll just rant and say annoying stuff about the movie but I was surprised that they enjoyed it more than I did.

And so I thought that gays and girls will only be the ones watching the movie until I saw couples in different ages came. There were kids too. This was something that I did not expect.

During the movie, I was so freakin' nervous like I was watching a live show. I was scared Christina might end up making a mess of her character but it did not happen. God! She was so fabulous! A true STAR!

These are the things I liked about the movie:

1. Although I’ve seen most of Christina Aguilera’s production numbers for the movie, I was still dumbfounded watching them on the big screen. My favorite would have to be “Show Me How You Burlesque”

2. Cam Gigandet was such a cutie. I enjoyed all his scenes with Christina especially the part when he got naked and with only a box of cookie covering his genetalia private area.

3. If Kristen Bell’s character was real, for sure I’d pray that she’ll burn in hell.

4. Cher and Stanley Tucci’s friendship is the kind of friendship I think I now have. It was fun seeing them together.

5. Every now and then you’ll laugh at the funny lines that the characters would throw at each other. The crowd can’t help but cackle and giggle.

I didn’t have high hopes for the movie to be patronized by the Filipino audience when I should’ve had. I saw that I wasn’t alone and the cinema was full! 

It was a feel-good movie. For few hours I was able to escape from the things that are bothering me for so long. I can’t wait for the DVD to come out for I will surely buy one.