Of Onions & Tears

You walk in and out of my thoughts;
I can’t stand the torture it gives me.
In the shadows we stay,
And that is my only reality.

But why would you just blankly stare
When I used to own your vision?
I am trying to keep it all in,
But like child I want to scream.

Some questions remain unanswered.
My fingers can’t count anymore.
Like your poor, tired, and sleepy eyes,
You heart wanders along the shore.

I can’t hold and keep you with me;
My hands aren’t capable of saving you.
Still, I don’t want to let you go,
For losing you means losing a part of me too.

I do not own you;
That’s why I live in fear.
I wish I can chop onions
Without shedding a tear.

You lead the way; I follow.
You push me away; I stay.
You give up; I do not give in.
You move on, I just can’t.